Wow. Just to make note of things...
I quit Joann Fabrics, because I decided I didn't need to deal with harassment to make money.
I have no clue what I'm doing in Anthropology because my teacher can't understand us, and we can't understand him. I think he's been tallking about goats for the last feeww classes. I'm prolly getting zeroes.
I'm haviing some difficulty with Japanese, but thats ok.
I had a history take home exam. It was due last thursday. I haven't done it yet. I prolly gunna do it later, and say that it wouldn't email it, and act very mad about it. Like "Blargh! Email blrah.".
Sooo. I'm going to be dying my hair blue one day. When I get the money. I want Simon blue hair. And then I want to cosplay as Simon. Tho I want to have a shirt.
Grahh. I have bio laab today.
I have not yet finished Yuna, and I need to finish her by thursday.

Blah!
My mood isn't right.

I'm gunna dye my hair blue.

The entirity of my head.

I'm gunna havta bleach it all first, but then It's getting dyed blue!!!

I lol at fakers/posers. They make me giggle.

I has them.
Upper respiratory and stomach.
ad to call out of both jobs, now joanns hates me. She told me I had to consider how many days I take off after this.
LIKE I'M BEING SICK ON PURPOSE?!
Seriously. I barely am able to breathe because I chose it to be so...

No. Not a crush.

It's more that crushing feeling in your chest that you get when you see terrible things play out in front of you, and the crushing feeling of anxiety during other days of your life.

In summary, my journal on the first week of school and Memorable days of september.

9/6/09
Celebration of Dexion Day, because I dropped my fown in the toilet and it erased my alerts, so I missed Zemyx Day. A sunday, so I felt guilty about the whole meaning behind the holiday... I still have a conscience.
I took my organization jacket out of the garage so I could get my man measurements for RIKU. I lost twenty pounds since we first made the jacket, so shockingly, what originally bound my chest to make me look flat did almost nothing. Hmm...
I decided to go to six flags on monday, because it was the last day of freedom before school and my second job started, so that was something I wanted to enjoy fully.
It was that night I decided to cut my hair also, so after work, I took a shower and got my mother to cut my hair.
I like it.

9/7/09
My friend Kaitlin and I went to six flags. We rode so many roller coasters. Kingda Ka was open. We rode it. I hurt my back. Really funny that I was breaking rules by riding the rides. Not supposed to ride if you have back problems. Now I know why. My back's been hurting me all week.
They had the Justice League. I took pictures with them. My favorite rides happen to be the Carusel, the Ferris Wheel, and The Buccaneer. Kinda sad.
I now know that I get sick after riding coasters. Way after. Like hours after, I'm finally hit by nausea, and migranes, and motion sickness in general. And it lasts for two days.

9/8/09
First day of school. Japanese class.
I didn't know what the heck I was doing anymore.
sensei: "Ogenki desuka?"
"AGaraga hada sablargh!...."
Cue my "friends" laughter. Uncontrollable laughter.
whispered between gasps and bouts of laughter
'okagesamadegenkidesu.'
"O...Okage...samerr..."
More laughter...
'degenkidesu'
"DEGENKIDESU!"
Uncontrollable.
Sensei: "... Now you say, 'Sensei wa?'"
"sssen..sei wa?..."
Meanwhile, friends are dying from asphixiation... Damn them.
After class, we decided to go to Sakura Sushi. I got Yaki Udon, cause I like anything Yaki and udon.
Then we blasted Japanese music in the college parking lot. Scared some gangstas.

9/9/09
DEMYX DAY. I wore blue and my organization hoodie. i also brought Demyx to school with me. I had to get up early for school.
Biology. I was the only person who wasn't an idiot. I was the only person who was answering any questions. Complete and utter fail on their part.
We got out early, and so I waited outside the Student Life Center for a few hours until my next class started. It was there I found a fake rock. Blatantly fake. Then I went to my email and found out that my favorite fanfiction had just updated. Much rejoicing.
I found my next class and waited outside it for an hour and a half.
When it started, I was slightly annoyed at the teacher for being late. Whatever; then he started talking, and I could barely understand it. Though I think anthropology with be my favorite class.
Then, we had a surprise meeting of the Genshiken: our college anime club of which I am a secretary of. We had only just that day found out about the club fair that was going on. The next day. Great. So we had to comme up with Ideas for the clubs table. I spent the rest of the night fixing Mustang and making a Gurren Laggan Flag.

9/10/09
Woke up at nine. Thought I was going to puke. Took a shower, packed my stuff, arrived at the school, and helped set up the table. I stood around with my Mustang Jacket on, and garnered attention just by that. Then more of our group showed up. I was nervous about getting dressed up fully into Mustang, as I was already getting wierd looks from people. I was going to wait for one of our Lolitas, but I ending up going and changing before too long. I was freaking out. Not visibly, but I was having multiple anxiety attacks. I like breathing, ya know?
I got my Lolis, and our booth was certainly the most festive, and one of the most visited. I think we pissed off the Asia society. There's rivalry.
I walked to class with our loli. Very happy. I felt much better not being the only one in obscure clothes. Next week is more cosplay!
I walked into my history class in cosplay and had a series of anxiety attacks.. I was going to wear the entire thing the entire day, but history made me really self conscious....
I changed during the break, and history was kinda fun, beyond the people looking at me like I was crazy.
We gathered for japanese again. This time, it wasn't to bad. My military boots killed my legs though. I went to bed eaarly to get ready for work. Had some trouble getting to sleep, because I was still having an anxiety attack, and I had trouble breathing for around an hour.

9/11/09
I awoke, played the Wii, then got ready for my first day at my new job. The Library. I was visibly nervous. I a naturally anxious person I suppose. I had to read about sexual harassment and answer a test about it. I nearly failed it. The othher test about more legal stuff I did really well on though. Kinda funny that I don't know much about what constitutes sexual harassment. I'm completely vulnerable... That took me awhile, so I started a cart of books for fiction, and I hadd eight books left when the library started to close. and when the library closed, we left. It was awesome.

I came home, helped my brother and his girlfriend make a cake. Then I turned on the TV. Stupid.
9/11.... Video memoirs. Watching people fall from the towers. I get that crushing feeling in my chest when I watch it. When it happened I was too apathetic to even care. Now I can actually care and understand, and I don't like it. The day it happened, they didn't bother to tell us what happened. They didn't take us out to the park for recess, but we could smell something wierd in the air. None of the teachers talked to us, and our teacher left for the day, as well as some students. It was when we were getting ready to go home that they decided to tell us about it. There was a dark cloud on the horizon when we went to the bus, and when we got home, the TV was on and it was on all channels. Even then I didn't really care. Though what I do remembeer is having the radio on the night before, and listening to Stuck in America, and having a terrible feeling that something bad was going to happen. I hate being right. Cause its all so wrong.

So... New loves. Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: My life as King and My life as a Dark Lord. ZOMG Adorable.

My internet is fixed.
I went to six flags.
I'm getting really pissed really easy.
I'm getting real depressed real easy for no reason. (maybe)
I can't wait for school to start so I don't have time to be depressed.
I am also going to look for a fown number that works so I can call the library. I guess I'm just fail like that. Lose the app, then call incorrect numbers........ no amount of periods can express my failure.
I need to go to the garment district of NY for Astha cosplay.
My sister said I look like Michael Jackson.
My manager still hates me, the bitch.
I have a family bbq on sunday and I need to clean the house.
Tomorrow is Akuroku day, and I'm probably gunna be forced into the wig.
I have sunburn.
I went to the store with my mother today and bought beer to kill the slugs in our garden.
I hate it when people from higher social standings place their troubles on the same levels as mine, cause it's not the same, and they will survive, unlike me.
I love people who know that they are of a higher social standing and don't act like they aren't. That doesn't mean acting like an ass, it just means being self aware.
I love paranormal things.
I want a cake.
I harvested vegetables from our garden today and it hurt my fingers.
I had a dream I was a human-fairy offspring and I was fighting the fairy queen.
I wish my house wasn't falling apart at the seems, and I wish my mother would realize that it is impossible for our house to be picture perfect, because we are one family, and we aren't being paid to constantly maintain our house. It can be clean, but the people whose houses are perfect and have similar stories to our also have multiple volunteers to do the work.
I wish I was a cyborg so I didn't have to type out my stories, I'd just think them and they'd go into a word document.
I wish I was the type of person who could be blissfully unaware of things and depend on other people to be my happiness.
I wish I was a better artist.